January 2011

Happy New Year!

I have been doing most posting on my law of attraction blog, but I wanted to return to my personal journal.

My health has been a struggle.
I have health insurance now (Kaiser), a part time job and am going to see Doctors.
I have been getting Iron IV infusions each week and the weight seemed to pile on after each treatment.
I asked my Doctors for a bit of a break from the infusions.
All I could imagine was my body ballooning up and my being house bound because I can no longer get through the door.
I started 2011 weighing 180.2.
I ordered Rawvolution's raw box last week.
I found that I could have easily eaten two full boxes by myself.
I added fruit and greens smoothies, fresh juices, salad greens and chocolate smooth move tea to the delicious dishes in the box.
I plan to order the box once a month.
I exercise every morning. I am trying to do as much cardio as I can. It all but depends on my energy each day.
The work for me is stopping when I need to. I have to make it a point of not thinking about the discomfort I am in at all and just keep showing up.
This morning the scale says 173.2.

It was a dream is to start Hot Yoga last year before my health got sidetracked.
Now I am looking to make it happen this month.
I am a little scared because of my asthma, but I want to try this practice for myself.
My brother will come to the first class with me, just in case.
I figure even if I just recline on my mat and towel for the entire 90 minuets for the first classes ( until I can do more) is my first goal.
I have been actively trying to train my body into consuming more water during the day (I plan to take hot yoga after work). I has been a problem.
I learned that I will be wise to have a drink with electrolytes handy for after class.
I am going to work on a coconut water based drink that will work for me.

I also chopped off all my hair!
It was great to end the year getting the haircut.

It tastes like summer.

I am still juicing everyday.
The drinks taste so rich with flavor when the juice is fresh.
I still have the small raw meal in the late afternoon.And lots of tea.
The weight loss has slowed.
I weight 152.
It is what it is, but I miss seeing the scale go down every day, so I have stopped checking every morning.
I have managed to keep my body fat from shooting up so the exercise video must be working. The Tracy Anderson DVD seems so simple (maybe because I can't seem to last past twenty-two minuets) but I can see a change in my profile.
I would love to test if the non organic fruit and veggies are the source or the slower weight loss effect. Maybe it's slowed because a balance is occurring as my body gets used to the juicing.
Still a mystery.
I'm happy with slow.


I just finished reading The Big Short by Michael Lewis.
I need to read it again.

I am excited about my newest toy:

I used it for the first time this morning.
My skin feels as if I have been to the spa.
Usually after a shower I dry off and rush to apply lotion.
This morning I was surprised how moisturized my skin felt right out of the shower.
Lovely.
Why had I not heard of a dry skin brush before?
Small victories.

One week in...

My outfit for the day.

                                                  
I ordered a book from the library and read it. It's The Raw Food Detox Diet by Natalia Rose. I started adding what I could this week.

When I first began to eat more raw foods I came across this book years ago. It seemed extreme to me then.Now having read the book (instead of skimming through it as I did before),I realized how ready I am ready for it. I went shopping and had the right foods and my plan laid out. I started on Monday.
I had specifically bought only organic items.

I did the Tracy Anderson video three times for about twenty minuets- with loads of breaks.
I love the results so far. I weigh 155. Down Four pounds.
My waist is now 33.5.
I ordered a copy of the book last night as a present for losing four pounds. I love the results so far and the recipes are very easy to prepare, so I want a copy I can keep.
I have some organic carrots and green apples left from the week.
For this weekend I had to look for the most food for my buck and stopped in a tiny grocer in East La for the first time. I look the posters of fresh produce and the really fantastic prices whenever I drive to work and wonder what the produce really looked like.

 organic produce before juicing during the week

Everything looked as fresh as it does at the farmers market. The only missing were greens, so I had to get some spinach elsewhere. I need to give the kale a rest for a bit. I have had it for two weeks with out a break in smoothies, salads and juices.
Time to try out veggies I have never used before.
I spent around nine dollars and have enough to juice the weekend and get through work on Monday. I will consume between 1.5 and 2 liters of juice a day.
Nothing was marked organic in the store.
It will be interesting to see if this weekends produce food hinders weight loss.
I will find the manager and ask where the produce comes from when I go back.
I have been drinking a version of Green Lemonade fro  the Raw Detox Book. I drink it all day long getting in about 2 liters by evening.
This week I had the same dinner, a zucchini salad I made on Sunday with some Yogi berry detox tea. I made enough for the week so that I could relax when I got home in the evening. I would have it cold or warm it for a few hours in the dehydrator.
  Having a great big bowl on hand allowed me to concentrate my energy on making fresh juice each night.

So far so good.

forced to start out slow.......

I have finished my third round of steroids.
I got up today for the first time in a long time and looked in the mirror.
I look awful.
The chip monk cheeks are back from the medicine.
I have gotten my blood pressure up to a normal range and can stand for longer periods.
Now the thing is to build myself up again and get to working out.
I am so excited to be getting a little better.
I am ready to do this.
This will be my third time losing weight after a long period of being ill.
My plan is to avoid doctors and do what I think will work and have fun.

I got a surprise in the mail from Mary S. a reader of one of my blogs:

The Tracy Anderson post pregnancy exercise DVD.
It's been on my Amazon wish list forever.
(Mary, Thank you agian for such a surprise. What a wonderful gift.)

I was inspired to challenge myself out of illness and into my best body when I ran across a great blog:

http://teenytinymethod.blogspot.com


The plan is to watch the DVD tonight and see how much of it I can on Sunday.
I hope you all have a great weekend.

eye candy

                                                   The Prince of Persia: The sands of time

Beautiful clothing.
I am not sure why this movie got so panned.
The clothing blew me away.

feeling like myself

                                                     Today's outfit from Ann Demeulemeester
After a medical scare I am resting according to my doctor.
But a woman has to dress. Too many days in my workout clothing has made me itching for some black swathed fun.
The writing is still part of the day. It feels natural now, almost like when I was a kid and filled my note books with stories so fast my father bought blank books in packs of twelve for me.
Although I am not as free flowing as the child writer I was; I get flushed with sweet smile. One I can't help, when I step away from the computer every day.

Doctor has something to say about this...

I went to my doctor.
Not such good news.
I switched to a birth control pill last month and it seems my period did not want to stop. Now I have painful dark spots on my legs and my breathing is horrible. Somehow it feels so different than my usual terrible asthma attacks. Really wrong. The doctor said I have to take it easy and come back tomorrow.

....that was my draft of my next post.

At the doctors visit I was sent to the hospital.

I went to the emergency room. I had tons of tests and am now home.
The worry was that I had blood colts forming in my chest, among other problems.
My work out program has been down graded for the moment.
No spinning.
No hard exercise.
I am moving the completion date for my on line "best body for me" project to my birthday September 30.

I have ordered an new collapsible mini trampoline to use when I get the go ahead to exercise.

I have to build my potassium and iron levels. So banana and kale based smoothies and  fresh greens heavy juice mixes are in order till my next doctors visit.
It was strongly suggested I eat red meat, specifically organ meat.
After a very long conversation I got my doctors permission to try my vegan way to see if I can get my levels up and be retested at my next visit.

As sick as I felt while I was in the hospital my brain was on business for distraction.
What do I want to offer and how do I want to go about it rolled around over and over. What can new technology provide for my business that a brick and mortar shop didn't ? Where is the profit and the art of it all?
My last business was 20 years of hard but artistically satisfying work. I was young and I liked the small world I had created.
My life has change more than I ever thought it would.
The world feels different and the workplace I want to create will be something new and I will put into place ideas that seemed impossible to get going with a running business.
A clean slate.
Sexy and exciting.

As a child I knew I didn't think like other people and over my life I have learned to be more like other people just to communicate better.
I am now beginning to realize I have thwarted access to what I really need from my mind right now- fresh thought. The access has been cut off a bit and I will be working on listening to my internal process of inspiration for inspiration, insight and creative action to take. Giving it some attention and nurturing.

Today I am researching Natalie Massenet ( founder of net-a-porter.com) and Michael Burry ( founder of the Scion Capital LLC hedge fund) on line. There are some old magazine articles I will re read about them today as I rest and recover.
Natalie because she was doing one thing and took on the inspiration and went for it.
Michael for many reasons. He was in medicine and went for something else. I think he has a form of Asperger's syndrome.  (thinking like no one else seems to be the theme right now)
His ability to analyze a huge field of information and see patterns, now that turns me on.
I am also inspired by his wading through negative feedback and going forward for such a long period.

I am also looking for these book at the library:

Built to Sell: Turn Your Business Into One You Can Sell

John Warrillow, Bo Burlingham

How to Build a Business and Sell It for Millions

~ Jack Garson (Author) 

Not sure if they are relevant because they are not really what I am looking for. 
Can't really say what that "is" but I am looking for it.